Conclusion of "I Refuse to Dwell On My lllness"

What was the cause? 

The doctors found that my hemoglobin level was  dangerously low and that my heart was working overtime to pump blood to my brain. Within a few weeks, treatment relieved the problem. But at that point, I remember thinking that anything could happen from one day to the next. I felt more helpless than ever, as if I had no control over what was happening to me. 

It has been 14 years since your condition was diagnosed. What is the state of your health now? 

I still live with pain, and I have a number of ailments that are associated with scleroderma. These include ulcers, lung fibrosis, and severe heartburn. Still, I refuse to dwell on my illness or waste time feeling sad. I have other things to do.

Like what? I love drawing, making clothes, making jewelry. Most important, though, as one of Jehovah's Witnesses, I engage in the work of teaching the Bible. Even when I am not able to walk to people's  homes, I am able to assist other Witnesses who conduct Bible study sessions with people in our area. I have even had students of my own. The ministry give my life purpose.  

Why do you engage in this work when you have your own problems to contend with? 

I know that the information I share with people is vital and beneficial. Besides, when I keep busy helping others in this way, I'm happier. I even feel healthier!  For that brief period of time, I forget that I'm sick.

What role does the Bible play in your positive viewpoint?


It reminds me that my suffering-and the suffering of others as well-is just temporary. Revelation 21:4 says that at his appointed time, God "will wipe out every tear from their eyes, and death will be no more, neither will mourning, nor outcry nor pain be anymore." Thinking about scriptures like that helps strengthen my faith in God's promise of a bright future-not just for those who suffer from chronic illnesses but for everyone. 

Next time: SUFFERING

From the AWAKE! magazine, 2015